Run

I am running.
I am running from the life I once lived
From the man I once was 

I am running from the coward who couldn’t face reality
Who couldn’t love when it was needed most.
Running from the man who can’t hold his word
Who didn’t understand the gravity of a covenant 
Who lacked integrity when needed most 
Running from the man that couldn’t be counted on 

I am running from the man-child that gives into his immediate compulsions
The one that couldn’t think things through to the end 
The animal that only sees what’s in front of it and must devour, to satiate its current hunger.
I am running from the vacuum in my heart that desperately sucks on the shallows of this world

I am running from the rage that boils inside me 
The childish resentment that tells me life is not how it should be 
The entitled boy that believes he deserves everything he wants 
I am running from the main character that believes the sun orbits his world  
Run, run far from him 

I am running. Running faster. Farther. 
Each step pressing harder. Pushing deeper. 
I must get away. Don’t turn back. 
Run run. 
Far from the grasp of my past

Away from the world I once knew. 
Away from the life I once lived. 
Away from who I once was. 

I am running 
I am running 
I am…running…

I am running toward the Father who has been running after me.